a silent night

Around midnight under the bed of twinkling stars we were there on the beach....empty and lonely as the place was, we just the two of us crowded it.. the cold sand drifted as we trailed along silently... i didn't know whom was i listening to; your silence or the sea...
                 we were imposters,hiding behind the cloak of friendship... i was wondering when will we shake it off and accept the truth.. the truth that there were feelings storming every time we stepped close.. the truth that we knew each  other too well.. the truth that we were in love..... the truth that we just had to admit...
                 for the first time we had nothing to talk..or may be we were just busy fighting the feelings.. hoping we shouldn't  make a fool out of ourselves.. cause once the line of friendship was crossed there was no turning back....
                i glanced at the sea... hoping she would answer.. i know it does sound stupid but it just seemed appropriate then.. the waves gently touching my feet... i looked at him... doing my maths.. what was he thinking.. he looked at me and smiled.. ah! that killing smile... i felt my feet burn..i felt myself getting restless... i smiled back awkwardly
               we walked,stopped,looked at each other,smiled.. and again we walked...  the breeze as ruthlessly cold as it was got us closer... the moon did seem interested... the clouds kept covering his sight.. and then i felt you come closer.. my stomach clinched.. i felt your hands move down mine... it seemed i would faint.. the sea didn't seem silent now... suddenly i could hear all that i had ignored all along.. i felt your cold fingers curled so tightly with mine...
              i was awestruck.. thinking how should i react.. was this really happening.. or again my inside, my head was delusional...the moment was incestuous.. i didn't want it to pass by.. i had to make a move... i had to show you my side of affection...
             i moved closer.. felt like my stomach might have just twisted inside... drifted my head on your shoulder with eyes clinched tight... hoping not to see your reaction.. hoping that's what you wanted... hoping that it wasn't a wrong move.....
             you abruptly stopped..we weren't walking anymore... i felt guilty.. i thought i just ruined it... i opened my eyes.... your face was horror struck..as if  i committed a crime... i was looking for a sign that it was alright.. a sign that it was just right.. a sign that i hadn't freaked you out....
             for a moment i thought i lost my world... i didn't notice my eyes were wet... felt like barging out from there... shaking you off and apologizing  for being so impulsive... i couldn't look into your eyes.. i screwed up...
             may be u just understood my thoughts..  the conflict.. the embarrassment... all i knew was the next moment you had your hands around me.. and i was silent,peacefully wrapped in your arms... everything again seemed shushed.. i heard your heart beats for the first time... and i felt as if i was the one making them beat so fast... you didn't have a slightest clue how good it made me feel inside.. or wait.. you knew!!
             we stood there looking at each other.. smiling.. the silence just seemed so perfect .. never wanting the words to ruin them... everything had fallen in place.. all the emotions right...
             and we walked... holding hands.. i was smiling.. couldn't keep it down.. and i wondered this is how love feels.... i again looked at the sea.. wondering what she might be thinking.. cause she just witnessed in few moments 'the journey from being friends to falling in love'...