He was.. and now He is!!

I stared in void and despair
as I saw my past walk back to me....
He held my hand with all love
and said forever with you I want to be...

He said sorry a million times
He said he wouldn't leave again..
He promised a forever since that moment..
He said never will  be in pain..

He took me in his arms
He hugged me tight..
In his eyes I saw the love
I wanted to see all this very time..

I stared in void and blithe
as I saw my present walk to me...
He held my hand with all love
and said forever with me you have to be...

He said he loves me a million times
and that I will never see him leave..
He said I promised you a forever since the day we met
and in no pain since you have been...

He took me in his arms
He hugged me tight...
and he stared down at my past...
You had her and you lost her...
Leave now he said.. she is all mine...
She is all mine to keep...
From the day I found her
and from the day she confided in me
she is all mine to keep...
Leave now he said... she will be fine...
and In my present I saw the love
I wanted to see all this very time...




  

Choosing Not To Live

So here I stand divided
watching them fight over me.
And I stand dumb
as their words tear apart my soul
and I think will not death be sweeter than
this hanging sword.

So I stand here listening to their curses
how in every way I am wrong
how in every way I have betrayed.
I see them cry a million tears
and I think what if I close my eyes say forever
and this pain will somehow go away.

So here I stand exhausted, confused, broken
tired of proving myself every step till date.
All I want is a bit of rest.
All I ask is a road bit less of thorns.
All I ask is to let me find some peace.
All I ask is to let me live.
or let me die with a smile at least.