I am hurting.
I am burning but not a pinch of pain
I feel.
It seems
I am on fire in water...!
I am sinking.
And the struggle for air is not that hard
But I want to hit rock bottom.
I want to breathe while drowning..!
That feeling of jumping of the edge.
Standing on a cliff I want to push myself.
I console me, its to fly.
Insane me. I want to soar while falling down..!
I am my contrast.
I am my regret.
I am my life and I am my death.
The sky cried heavy today
She saw it from her window..
Monsoons- The season she hates..
Trying to reason out why?
Just as the storm out there..
She hopes it floods her heart
And destroys it to the extent
Nothing grows again..
That it becomes a swarm
Useless and not walked upon..
She doesn't remember when
It came to hating monsoon so much..
There are memories she suppressed..
And there are memories she can't remember..
Which one got her to despise it..
The lightening roars and she ain't
A bit scared..
She is as cold as pouring rain..
She doesn't cry anymore
Is she jealous of the clouds
Who can shed tears and she
Has forgotten how to..
May be she hates monsoon
Because she finds herself so similar to it..
The chaos it gets.. Just as inside her.
The loud thunder.. Just as inside her..
The inability to see things clear.. Just as her..
To be loved by few and to be hated by few..
Not knowing whom to destroy..
Or destroy what comes in the way..
She resembles the Monsoon..
May be that's why she hates it to the core..
Only if she loved her chaos
Only if she loved her monsoon..
I remember you,
I remember waiting on new years eve
for your call to wish me,
I wanted to start the year listening to your voice..
So I waited and hours passed by
Sun rose and came another day without
Knowing your whereabouts.
If I ask you what you remember of me?
I know you will say all our good times.
If you ask me what I remember about you?
All I remember was me waiting.
From dusk to dawn, day after day
All I remember was me waiting.
It didn't seem to end.
There were times I thought you'd
Just surprise me by your unannounced
Visit.
I imagined in my head how that would be
So I waited.
There were times when I hallucinated. Staring at your look-a-like faces,
I thought you passed by.
And I cried every day.
Million times my phone rang
And every time I hoped
It was you calling.
But you never did.
So I waited.
Day after day
Months after months.
Every occasion and every normal day.
I waited like a fool.
And you never came.
This is what I remember of you.
It was tiring.
I waited for so long.
Every year the first rains
bottled up my sorrow
And I cried a river full of tears..
This time it seems
There is nothing more to grieve over..
So I cried dried up tears....
