I am hurting

I am hurting.
I am burning but not a pinch of pain
I feel.
It seems
I am on fire in water...!

I am sinking.
And the struggle for air is not that hard
But I want to hit rock bottom.
I want to breathe while drowning..!

That feeling of jumping of the edge.
Standing on a cliff I want to push myself.
I console me, its to fly.
Insane me. I want to soar while falling down..!

I am my contrast.
I am my regret.
I am my life and I am my death.