A Colloquy Of BitterSweet Love: February 2013

Monday, February 25, 2013

A Conversation 4

He said ' Its the distances isn't it?'
I said 'No honey, Its the desire to be around you always'

He said ' I have let you down a million times'.
I said ' the zillion other moments of your love covered it up'.

He said 'You can always find someone else'.
I said ' Being with someone else has made me realize i cannot be with anyone else'.

He said ' I love you more than you love me'.
I said 'I agree.You test so much of my patience.I deserve to be loved more.'

He said ' What makes you not quit on me'
I said ' because there were moments you held on when i planned to leave'.

Thursday, February 21, 2013

Not once I said Be Mine

Not once i looked back on him
Not once i tried to know how he'd be doing
Not once i wished him a last good bye
Not once i gave him a thoughtful smile...

Not once did i try to hear him out
Not once did i let out my anger and shout
Not once i said 'stay i need you now'
Not once i confessed i loved him somehow.

Not once did i reply his mail
Not once did i explain my hurting tale
Not once i held on to those tears
Not once i confronted him with my fears.

I let him go
I helped him disappear
I watched him be someone else's shine
and i stood by holding on to my aching heart
to fault over someone who from
beginning was never mine...

Monday, February 18, 2013

Close to Him

I can die underneath the darkness,

wrapped in your arms ..

just to live close to your heart beats....

Okay!!

There was a time when i asked
"Is it alright if we get some distance between us"
and you replied
"Baby stay close and be mine forever."

Today when i asked
"Is it alright if we get some distance between us"
You reply "Only if you feel okay".
I stared at the 'Okay' for hours
wondering 'How can i ever be 'Okay' now'?

A Twitter Conversation.

He: *Takes out his sword and golden armor and walks by the side of the lady in hope that she notices him* but

Me: but?

He:  I have written half of the story, rest has to be completed by you.

Me:  She knowingly looks away. He is brave yet not her love and she doesn't want him to hope and hurt!

He:  He loses the battle of love yet again but the war is not over and nor his love for her.

Me: Her worst fear is he won't quit and she doesn't want him to try!

He:  He never tries, as to try one need to do effort. It is the destiny which has tied him to her, he can't help.

Me:   Its 'his' destiny tied to 'hers' , but in reality 'her's' was already destined for another soul

He:  Both souls move on their destiny, the paths coincide for a moment but memory stays for life time.

Me:  The memory is what she doesn't want to keep, it will be better she thought if their destinies never collided, not even for a moment.

He:  Destiny is no decided by lessor soul like you or me, but its the moment which destiny surfaces are decided by us.Love-Hatred

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Sour lines!

It seems he used her for her charms
and he left her with an aching heart
she didn't say a word,
cause partly it was her fault,
she let him in,
she opened a broken heart to a broken person
to realize it wasn't meant to be healed
but damaged further.
She laughed as tears rolled down
and she said ‘I deserve the pain,
not because I lost my love
but love made me loose a friend’.

I will Miss my Valentine

I wait for your call
talk till the time you say ' i need to sleep'.

I ask if i can help
when even in brief distress you be.
I wake up in the middle of night
to listen the complaints if you can't dream.
I laugh even on your saddest joke
so a smile on your face i see.

I take your moods & I take your anger,
I hold you close and say 'I am here'.
I adjust my schedule when
you ask me to be there.
I know exactly how to take your care.

I love you with bits and pieces
of my heart,
so much that my day starts with your thoughts
and ends by missing not being besides you.
If i could just cut the distance
you could see how much you mean to me
and how silently i shed my tears
as its Valentines and nowhere near are you to me!