a journey to the past!!

an ordinary day....and ofcourse if you are sitting idle  mom insists you to clean up your cupboard... with a grim on your face,with all the frustration and anger you open the cupboard... and you dig up the mess...all the stuff thats bin there for ages... surprisingly you just find yourself travelling back in time... my one such delightful experience :) :) :)



once i was cleaning my cupboard,
it had become so much dusty..
i noticed an old book lying beneath.
with a question mark on my face,
i took it in my hand
though it looked very old
i wondered why i kept it!!!

the first page i opened &
to my surprise the book
belonged to my college days
obviously that instant a wide wide smile
had gripped my face!!!

the first four five pages
belonged to some notes
which i had so sincerely noted down...
and i grew curious to know
whats coming next
and gone was the frown!!!

yes! those were the days
so much mine
friends and only friends
made the world shine
wasn't i lucky to find good ones??
whose mind was as fussy as mine!!

i saw the pages where
'flames' was removed
those all nonsense things
i guess only we could do..
love percentages,dares and those
classy jokes one by one
made me laugh on
possibly what i had done!!!

then there was a picture,kind of cartoon,
i wondered who could this be..
oh! yes yes! this was our teacher
whose face i had drawn during his own lecture..
later ofcourse it was improved
by my friends,
below my artist buddies also
signed their names!!

haha!! i gave a hearty laugh
my!my! guts we had..
to bunk & hog & sing
we were mischievous kids
with big naughty wings!!

joy and happiness was in the air,
fun was all we ever aimed.
somethings that we did
were definitely stupid ,
but it hardly mattered
cause unknowingly we were making memories!!!

i miss you people,

incredible were the times we shared
days pass by, an era
comes to an end and
you got to move on to make new friends..
and yet everytime when i turn around and look back
i smile,cause i know you are the people to whom
i can never say 'good bye'!!!

i wont quit!!!

Few years back i had to make a choice... the first was a easier one get on with the branch i get based on my marks..live with it my entire life... the second was to take a years break,give the exam again hoping to b what i always wanted to be.. a doctor!! as usual in our indian set up following your dreams isnt an easy task cause you have your family,people around you questioning your sanity,your decision making,telling you whats right for you... that was the time when i decided to go with the odds... it wasnt easy so this would cheer me up whenever i was low!! and it was all worth it!!!



            few whom i held dear
            now seem so apart,
            when trust is betrayed
            and you are a broken heart.....

            when you wish to be left alone
             and make a new start
            yet why hope seems low
            and dreams depart...........
     
            when life becomes queer
             and you want to thrive
            when you want to give your best
             and again survive..............
            then why faith's lost
            and you feel its not worth the fight....

            when you dream to win
             and you badly loose
            when efforts are not paid
              and tears you choose.....
            still why cant anyone understand
              one can still make it through....

            for the things you never did
              and yet you are blamed
            no one hears your
              innocent claim...
            its your own people who turn away
               nothing can ever recede this pain.........

            the road you take is all uphill
              and you have only your will
            there's no one to help and no one to hold
               and the possibility seems nill.......

            challenges are all to come and go
              aint that life; sometimes high,sometimes low
            stand tall even when its a big fall
              god is there,he knows it all..
            these are hurdles to see if you are fit
              to make it through just say
            "i wont quit"

paus ani toh...

मन झाले उदास या पावसाच्या थेम्बाना

गड गडत्या आकाशासारख मन पण रडत माझ

या सरी हातात टिपून , आठवणी घेऊन येई निरभ्र आभाळ

सांर विसरलेल्या त्या नयनांना कशाला रे परत रडवलं

या पिवळ्या अशा रानाला हिरवा रंग का शोभतो

अबोल या मनाला हाच ऋतू का भावतो

मातीची हि वाट तू आल्यावर चिखल होते

तशीच ह्या हृदयात त्या क्षणांची घाळमेळ वाढते

दोन क्षणाचा तो पाऊस अख्खा दिवस सतावतो

तो पण त्याच्या सारखाच निघून जातो

हातात फक्त हा थेंब तर तो अश्रू ठेवतो

a lost love!!!

i just remembered all
those tried to forgotten days
with all its brisk tinge
tears came down like rain

all those words which
are yet kept here untold
and those silent feats that
now leave my heart cold

i have a flower in hand
whose petals are lively red
they were then and they are now
only its fragrance has faded

how happy i had bin when
i knew you loved me
it took me by surprise
but the fate was hard to believe

don't weep oh heart
when the ground is greeted by shower
it's never meant for joy

since winter is soon to follow

silent the world has become around
since you left mine without a sound
how slowly and quietly you made your way
couldn't even hear my own dream's break

i collected those broken pieces

and did join them together

this time there was something missing

you who had left forever

wasn't i a fool to
expect so much from you
everything is incompletely done

and the grief is nothing new

sagged are my hopes one by one
that i held to please myself
it pricks me like a thorn
no tears left to spare

what should i do next
will i be able to walk alone
i ask myself to see
but it's so lost somewhere
that it doesn't even answer me!