pushed me off the edge!!

winter got a cold sore on my heart
the burns were meant to heal
yet here they are as fresh as new
all thanks to you!!!!

the distances seem good
somehow they ease the ache...
no one had to confront
no one had to explain....

there are no proper goodbyes
i won't be able to give any..
the misery you have caused
indebted forever i will be...

you pushed me off the edge
but the bruises pained less
then the broken heart..
it was kind of you to
not respond back
or else what would force me to
take my own walk....

torn in two worlds!!!

she stood silent..  numb and lonely.. she pushed herself far from the crowd.. the ignorant crowd.. the soul less  people.. she always thought she'd fit in with them.. but they were too heartless to see her purity... her caring thoughts.. her selfless deeds..
               from the start she knew she was far too matured then her mates.. they all were too clingy to life's mess and she could always move on.. they used to curse if they were hurt and she used to pray for them .. her friends sorted for revenge and she forgiveness...
               she stood there confused... figuring out what was wrong... her good side or this world.. cause no matter how much she tried.. she ended up hurt and betrayed... it was the one of those defining moments.. where she didn't know where she belonged...to the ruthless people in whom she always tried to see the good or the world of saints who always told her to do what's right...
               she trusted cause she thought everyone needs to get a chance to show who they are.. she believed because she thought that way she could get hold of good people.. but in the quest of finding the good she lost herself to the turmoil of the right and wrong... the good and bad... she lost the power to believe.
            she looked at the hustle and bustle of the cars down street,people chatting  their way home.. and then she looked at the stars up.. calm and serene...  blinking for her as if she owned them... she felt the void... she felt divided into two worlds.. down there her existence seemed so worthless.. up here she waited to embrace her doubts cause she knew she could see beyond what existed... the truth beyond lies... the reasons behind life's every defining moments... she knew she had to wait to get the answers of life.. there was more to what she already knew... but it wasn't the time yet.. she wasn't ready.. the quest wasn't over...
           when she looked into herself her pain eased, her hurts healed... she had read a lot about spirituality.. but she wasn't sure whether what she was experiencing now was a part of it.. cut off from the noise she was at peace with everything.. what she felt seemed ecstatic.. a state of trance where emotions mattered less... the journey mattered more...
           she knew she was different.. born as a human but with an ability to seek good... for the people and for self.... yet the void was not completely gone.. and she still had her doubts... she still had to go back to the real world where she wasn't sure she belonged.. in a way she neither belonged to the common people nor the saints.. but someday,sooner or later she will have to take a decision.. she will have to make a choice between the two... the common people or the enlightened souls.... neither of which promises an easier journey.  

men!!

i wonder why the caption  "women are so difficult to understand"  such a frequently used popular phrase... i mean who said guys aren't? they are equally difficult to get..
                    they come with cute lovee dovee surprises first, make you fall in love and then take you for granted.. it makes us think a lot.. for example are they actually serious about us,are they goofing around or they just going with the flow.. we  never know.. and when you question them about their integrity, they have all the right excuses and cheesy dialogues to cover up their thoughts "just because i don't call you often doesn't mean i don't love you,it's not that i am in love with someone else". bamn!!! and that's exactly what makes us think you are with someone else.
                   they never get the small things, everything has to be explained. for them it's weird that we pay attention to little details... actually when they are dealing with their girlfriend, details shouldn't matter.. just once try and tell that to your wife later... tell her its ok that she can keep the house as messy as she wants or its alright if she forgets to put salt in your dish or she doesn't notice what your dearest mommy likes or dislikes!! guys we pay attention to details that's what makes your house look good when you come home after a tiring day!!
                 regarding emotions men are equally complex.. they don't understand how they feel, in case they know how they feel they don't know how to react, when they do react its absurd,when they realize its absurd they come and apologize..by the time they come its almost always too late... and then they start blaming themselves all over again.. and that's when the wasted and boozing phase comes... and they say women are complicated!!
                 their problem with us is that we think a lot.. and our problem with them is that they don't think at all!! and we do put up with lot's of your stuff too.. we understand the breakdown when your favourite team doesn't win, when your interview doesn't go good, when you want time with your friends alone, when your play station is not working and you are soaked in grief...
                the thing i want to say is that its not always we women who are complex and complicated.. you men are too.. but just in different ways.. the only difference is that we accept you with your faults... and not make a caption of your shortcomings and blame everything on it!!  

take me in your arms!!

undo my every emotion,take me in your arms
let me believe in peace, take in your arms
let the tears be wiped of the shirt you wear;
i have waited enough, just take me in your arms.....

hold me close and kiss me on my forehead
break the silence,kiss me on my forehead
let me know you too were tired of the wait;
i need to feel the love, just kiss me on my forehead....

long were the nights when you were gone
hard was the walk when you were gone
autumn love seemed so much grey
needless the world seemed, when you were gone....

now that you are here, please don't leave
love needs careless moments, please don't leave
i have lost the patience, i might wither away
hold my hand i need you to stay....