She climbed those stairs, opened the door to her room, took a deep breath turned around and locked the door from inside. The stared at the empty room the haunting silence. She just stood for a long time not knowing which emotion she should drown into. She was sad, helpless, lonely, miserable, betrayed, abandoned and angry.
It could have been their fifth anniversary she thought. Only if he had the guts to commit. One tear rolled down of sadness. She sat with her back against the door. How could he not care at all she thought. How could he be so okay about this situation. Second tear rolled out of helplessness. She might have be celebrating since midnight she thought. He would have explained why he loved her so much and she would have said he meant her her world. One tear rolled out of loneliness. It would have been his arms she would be wrapped in she thought. Instead she kissed this friend of hers and curled into his embrace just for the sake of it. She hated herself. She was hating this person she was turning into. Nothing filled the void. No kiss, no shoulder, no clasp or cuddle made her feel complete. Another tear rolled of her misery. He had promised her a future together. He had said no matter what the circumstances he would stay. He showed her those content dreams to later just leave then broken. One tear fell for the betrayal. He left giving all the filthy excuses. He left. One more tear rolled down for his abandonment. She processed all the mistakes his and hers a million times. She tried to justify his behavior with all possible explanation. All in vain. He left her so much of pain. He left her so much of humiliation. He left her and she cannot walk tall now. So the last tear was of anger. He will suffer she thought. He will have everything but love, all fame but support. He will never know true love in his life and from whom he will expect a commitment shall never stay. She hated she cursed him. But that was okay she just didn't wish him well thereafter. The last tear was of realization. The anniversary, the beginning itself had marked the end now. She has to live with this for life time. She wished he lives with same pain for eternity.
It could have been their fifth anniversary she thought. Only if he had the guts to commit. One tear rolled down of sadness. She sat with her back against the door. How could he not care at all she thought. How could he be so okay about this situation. Second tear rolled out of helplessness. She might have be celebrating since midnight she thought. He would have explained why he loved her so much and she would have said he meant her her world. One tear rolled out of loneliness. It would have been his arms she would be wrapped in she thought. Instead she kissed this friend of hers and curled into his embrace just for the sake of it. She hated herself. She was hating this person she was turning into. Nothing filled the void. No kiss, no shoulder, no clasp or cuddle made her feel complete. Another tear rolled of her misery. He had promised her a future together. He had said no matter what the circumstances he would stay. He showed her those content dreams to later just leave then broken. One tear fell for the betrayal. He left giving all the filthy excuses. He left. One more tear rolled down for his abandonment. She processed all the mistakes his and hers a million times. She tried to justify his behavior with all possible explanation. All in vain. He left her so much of pain. He left her so much of humiliation. He left her and she cannot walk tall now. So the last tear was of anger. He will suffer she thought. He will have everything but love, all fame but support. He will never know true love in his life and from whom he will expect a commitment shall never stay. She hated she cursed him. But that was okay she just didn't wish him well thereafter. The last tear was of realization. The anniversary, the beginning itself had marked the end now. She has to live with this for life time. She wished he lives with same pain for eternity.
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