Upset

In the midst of chaos,
You are like an unwanted shower.
Drowning me in my own struggle.
The one I am not even sure
why am I having?
Not even sure who am I
Fighting with?
You are like that dark cloud.
Me silently waiting for it to turn into a storm.
But you just shed Grey.
Neither is there a lightening
Nor a thunder.
Disappointing as always.
I am not even sure with whom am I upset?
Is it You for letting me down?
Or me for letting you do it?