she was happy in her new life.. away from their fights,worries,constant nagging... everything was working fine.. well planned.. smooth.... yet she thought of him... 'its the past' she convinced herself.. yet her mind often wandered the good he had once got in her life..
they didn't speak often... after years of blaming,tears and depression they were even with each other.. somehow they had managed to come to point where they could say hi without feeling sad...
she made herself go through the rough times she had been through because of him.... she reminded herself how miserable he had made her life back then.. the time she spent getting over the sour words he said.. still after all these years her mind was filled with questions... why couldn't she throw him off her mind?... why her heart gave a slight kick whenever he said hi?....
'one last meet,should i invite him' she thought.... but she always knew it was a terrible idea... the more tempted she got to do so.. the more she convinced herself not to... the conflict was getting harder within her.... how bad can it be.. its just to catch up on things.. what if i again fall for him.. what if he asks for one more chance.. what do i do then.. do i wanna go back.. what if he hasn't changed.. what if she was only the one thinking all this and he is busy with someone else.. will he know deep down i still think about him.. that his dreams still haunt me.. that i wanna see him one last time...
she wanted to know everything... she wanted to know if he had changed.. she wanted to know what if they could get back together and work their past mistakes...that she could live those few good moments again... to feel what they once felt for each other one last time... she knew somewhere even he thought the same... but it was too late... too late to confront.. too late to express.. too late to walk into the hands of the past.. which either way didn't end well... there was no time now... to repeat those same mistakes... it was just too risky...
she gathered herself up... she shushed her heart...erased the 'can we meet' she had typed on her message window.. convinced herself 'it was a terrible idea'.. until next time when a heart would flip again a moment for him!!!
they didn't speak often... after years of blaming,tears and depression they were even with each other.. somehow they had managed to come to point where they could say hi without feeling sad...
she made herself go through the rough times she had been through because of him.... she reminded herself how miserable he had made her life back then.. the time she spent getting over the sour words he said.. still after all these years her mind was filled with questions... why couldn't she throw him off her mind?... why her heart gave a slight kick whenever he said hi?....
'one last meet,should i invite him' she thought.... but she always knew it was a terrible idea... the more tempted she got to do so.. the more she convinced herself not to... the conflict was getting harder within her.... how bad can it be.. its just to catch up on things.. what if i again fall for him.. what if he asks for one more chance.. what do i do then.. do i wanna go back.. what if he hasn't changed.. what if she was only the one thinking all this and he is busy with someone else.. will he know deep down i still think about him.. that his dreams still haunt me.. that i wanna see him one last time...
she wanted to know everything... she wanted to know if he had changed.. she wanted to know what if they could get back together and work their past mistakes...that she could live those few good moments again... to feel what they once felt for each other one last time... she knew somewhere even he thought the same... but it was too late... too late to confront.. too late to express.. too late to walk into the hands of the past.. which either way didn't end well... there was no time now... to repeat those same mistakes... it was just too risky...
she gathered herself up... she shushed her heart...erased the 'can we meet' she had typed on her message window.. convinced herself 'it was a terrible idea'.. until next time when a heart would flip again a moment for him!!!
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